EMAIL OF THE DAY

“You’ve articulated the conclusion I came to about 3 years ago, and it’s that same conclusion that I wrestle with every day since. I’m considering sending it to my parents, since they ask me so frequently and unintentionally patronizingly, “Couldn’t you just go to mass?” No. Because there is no such thing as “JUST going to mass.” It’s the swell of hatred, fear, disbelief, and violent solitude that makes “going to mass” the exercise in emotional upheaval I now must avoid. The avoidance is not laziness (for I still feel those emotions strongly, just not so viciously like I do in church), but rather the understanding and perspective I now have that maintaining my sanity and my joy is a very important task if I at all want to live in gratitude to my Creator.”