… How did I end up like this?
I often think of my friends'
Beautiful prismatic counselling
And the anvil brains of some who hate meAs I sit weighing and weighing
My responsible tristia.
For what? For the ear? For the people?
For what is said behind-backs?
Rain comes down through the alders,
Its low conductive voices
Mutter about let-downs and erosions
And yet each drop recallsThe diamond absolutes.
I am neither internee nor informer;
An inner émigré, grown long-haired
And thoughtful; a wood-kerneEscaped from the massacre,
Taking protective colouring
From bole and bark, feeling
Every wind that blows;Who, blowing up these sparks
For their meagre heat, have missed
The once-in-a-lifetime portent,
The comet's pulsing rose.
"Exposure" by Seamus Heaney. The full poem – with the omitted beginning – is here.