A eunuch writes:
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Although not bearing my cross, you have spoken admirably about the strange dance of males with their glands. A prostatectomy three years ago followed by intense testosterone suppression hormone therapy has left me with a unique trifecta: impotence, incontinence and sexlessness (total absence of desire).
The first time after the surgery I saw a group of strapping, robust teenage males walking toward me, I had an inner disquiet I had not felt since my pre-pubescent days in the presence of older young men. The downside of this strange journey of total and perhaps permanent sexual inadequacy is an equally strange release and realization I had been a prisoner to testosterone for nearly half a century. I had spent every hour of every day since I was thirteen driven by an inner force that was at once angelic and demonic. Now I was paroled into a world that no longer holds any desire for me.
Even more tragic, was that the older I became and the more invisible (and unattractive) I became to others the more the hormonally-driven desire to not fade into oblivion drove me to act in desperation; this is what Dylan Thomas means to me by that phrase…"raging against the dying of the light!"
Death would be a welcome relief from such dying of the light in sexual anonymity! I am sure the public personae of well-known men – Weiner, Ensign, Vitter, Clinton, Gingrich, Spitzer, et al. – has even intensified my anguished ' desire to be desired'. Thanks again for your good words.
I hope I have the courage as a 60 year old male to start a support group in my city for men similarly situated to me. I think I shall call it Eunuchs Anonymous.
The Dish 