The critic Dwight Garner recently contended that reading Donald Antrim’s books “is like driving 90 miles an hour while in third gear, in the back seat of a jalopy the author has stolen, while he disposes of his drugs by throwing them out the window.” That sounded like an endorsement to us, so this weekend’s short story is Antrim’s “The Emerald Light in the Air,” which appeared in The New Yorker earlier this year. Here’s how it begins:
In less than a year, he’d lost his mother, his father, and, as he’d once and sometimes still felt Julia to be, the love of his life; and, during this year, or, he should say, during its suicidal aftermath, he’d twice admitted himself to the psychiatric ward at the University Hospital in Charlottesville, where, each stay, one in the fall and one the following summer, three mornings a week, Monday, Wednesday, Friday, he’d climbed onto an operating table and wept at the ceiling while doctors set the pulse, stuck electrodes to his forehead, put the oxygen meter on his finger, and then pushed a needle into his arm and instructed him, as the machines beeped and the anesthetic dripped down the pipette toward his vein, to count backward from a hundred; and now, another year later, he was on his way to the dump to throw out the drawings and paintings that Julia had made in the months when she was sneaking off to sleep with the man she finally left him to marry, along with the comic-book collection—it wasn’t a collection so much as a big box stuffed with comics—that he’d kept since he was a boy. He had long ago forgotten his old comics; and then, a few days before, he’d come across them on a dusty shelf at the back of the garage, while looking for a carton of ammo.
Read the rest here. This selection provided the title for Antrim’s latest collection, The Emerald in the Light Air: Stories, which the Dish profiled here. Check out previous SSFSs here.